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Orangtua dan Anak

Saya tahu, tidak ada yang salah dengan memiliki keinginan punya HP baru yang canggih. Punya motor keren seperti teman. Pengin nonton konser, pengin jalan-jalan, pengin tas, baju, sepatu, dan semua keinginan lainnya. My dear anggota page yang masih remaja dan usia sekolah, tentu saja boleh kepengin hal-hal tersebut.

Nah, yang tidak boleh, jangan sampai kita menambah beban pikiran orang tua. Merajuk, marah2, boikot, dsbgnya. Boleh jadi, tanpa kita tambahi dengan permintaan, boleh jadi loh, setiap malam mereka sudah menghela nafas panjang memikirkan kita–meski kita tidak tahu. Toh, terkadang keinginan kita hanya ingin saja, tidak banyak manfaatnya, kecuali untuk keren-kerenan.

Jadilah selalu remaja yang bisa meringankan beban orang tua. Dan cara tercepatnya tidak perlu ikut bekerja, mencari uang sendiri; dengan terus belajar yang giat, sekolah yang sungguh2, kita sudah membantu banyak.

–Tere Lije

Pernyataan di atas tersebut merupakan salah satu status yang dibuat oleh Bang Tere Liye di Facebooknya. Saya selalu antusias membaca setiap status yang diupdatenya. Selalu menginspirasi. Apalagi tentang cinta. Ahaide. πŸ™‚

Iya. Ini bahasannya tentang orang tua dan anak.

Benar sekali apa yang ditulis oleh Bang Tere Liye. Dengan terus belajar yang giat, sekolah yang sungguh-sungguh, kita sudah membantu banyak.

Pernah tidak melihat ataupun menyaksikan dengan mata kepala sendiri ketika orang tua kita bertemu dengan keluarga atau teman sejawatnya dan ketika mereka membahas tentang perkembangan anak-anak mereka. Mulailah pembahasan tentang keunggulan dan kekurangan yang ada pada anak mereka.

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Mata orang tua kita mulai berbinar, senyum mereka mulai mengembang, dan semangat mereka bangkit. Iya. Ketika mulai membeberkan betapa hebatnya anak-anak mereka kepada Β orang-orang. Utamanya ketika pembicaraan menjurus ke arah pendidikan.

Dengan apapun itu, mereka bersedia memutar otak bagaimana caranya agar kita terfasilitasi pada masa studi yang ditempuh. Rela berkorban mengeluarkan uang berapapun jumlahnya. Iya. Demi anak. Demi pendidikannya.

Betapa besar kepercayaan mereka kepada anak-anaknya terhadap dunia pendidikan yang ditempuh. Di sinilah proses pembelajaran anak terhadap diri sendiri dan orang lain. Bagaimana caranya belajar bertanggung jawab untuk masa depan.

Dan ketika kita telah berhasil membawa diri di tingkat pendidikan yang baik. Lihatlah tangis haru dan senyum merekah mereka.

Yang namanya masih status pelajar, tugas kita ya belajar. Yang baik dan benar. Belajar itu pada hakekatnya terjadi perubahan ke arah yang positif. Bukan ke arah yang negatif. Berusaha dulu berbakti kepada orang tua. Walau harus diakui, saya juga pernah merasa jengkel dan marah kepada mereka hanya karena keinginan saya yang tidak dipenuhi akan sesuatu hal. Tapi, yah. Namanya juga masih anak-anak dan emosi masih membuncah. Ya sudah, marah-marah sendiri. Tidak jelas. Besok-besoknya, tidak lagi.

Olehnya itu, kita harus SEMANGAT… Yakin bahwa kita bisa menjadi anak papa dan mama yang baik. Insya Allah. Dengan usaha dan pengorbanan yang setara untuk prestasi yang akan kita ukir nantinya. Iya. Untuk mereka berdua. πŸ™‚ Aamiin…

*Allah, masih terlalu banyak dosa saya terhadap orang tua. :'(
Semoga usaha saya untuk membanggakan mereka bisa meringankan sedikit tentang dosa yang pernah saya buat kepada mereka di mataMu. Karena saya masih belajar menjadi yang baik. Aamiin.

Posted in English, Life, Love

Hopeless

If I can be called as a labile person, I am a really labile person for this time. I know what makes me like this. Hmmm. I’m aware that I’m really really really stupid girl. Hehehe. More and more my post is only about my heart.

Yup, all this time, when my feeling has a problem, I just write, write, and write on my blog. Sometimes it’s a poetry, a story, or anything else which can make me calm in writing what I have to say. I don’t care with people talk about me. This is me.

I know that we have to post useful something for other. I think, it is done in certain time. Of course, with a good mood. πŸ™‚ But, how with my heart which I can’t save this problem in my heart lonely.

I have fallen so deep in valley. I just can smile when I have to look up at the sky. Asking a help. Some people want to give their hands, but I can’t give my hand to help my self. And it’s useless. No change I get, No better life, No Learning I have. πŸ™‚
Maybe for this time, I am only able to be silent, silent, and silent. How about smile? I don’t know. πŸ™‚ I must go on, move on. I can’t give up. But, this hurt is killing me.

How can I rise anymore? I’m in a deep valley now. And now, I can’t expect too much with what I want. About my love in the future especially. Yup. This is about feeling. Feeling that brings self until we’re being old. Forever. I have fallen, fallen and fallen. If necessary, I can be in a death of this feeling. How pain I get. Hehehe. This is my risk. The older men have said to me to be careful with this situation, but I didn’t hear them. And now, I get it.Β *Good job!!! Do it more.Β :p

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Allah, is there still someone for me, with this stupid girl? I feel NOT. πŸ™‚ I’m hopeless for this. Yaaah, how poor me. This is my risk because I amn’t good yet.

Allah, You know what I need now, but You will grant for me if I worship to You.

I’m hopeless for this situation actually. Coz my own mistakes. Sudahlah. I’ll responsible with this.

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Hopeless

If I can be called as a labile person, I am a really labile person for this time. I know what makes me like this. Hmmm. I’m aware that I’m really really really stupid girl. Hehehe. More and more my post is only about my heart.

Yup, all this time, when my feeling has a problem, I just write, write, and write on my blog. Sometimes it’s a poetry, a story, or anything else which can make me calm in writing what I have to say. I don’t care with people talk about me. This is me.

I know that we have to post useful something for other. I think, it is done in certain time. Of course, with a good mood. πŸ™‚ But, how with my heart which I can’t save this problem in my heart lonely.

I have fallen so deep in valley. I just can smile when I have to look up at the sky. Asking a help. Some people want to give their hands, but I can’t give my hand to help my self. And it’s useless. No change I get, No better life, No Learning I have. πŸ™‚
Maybe for this time, I am only able to be silent, silent, and silent. How about smile? I don’t know. πŸ™‚ I must go on, move on. I can’t give up. But, this hurt is killing me.

How can I rise anymore? I’m in a deep valley now. And now, I can’t expect too much with what I want. About my love in the future especially. Yup. This is about feeling. Feeling that brings self until we’re being old. Forever. I have fallen, fallen and fallen. If necessary, I can be in a death of this feeling. How pain I get. Hehehe. This is my risk. The older men have said to me to be careful with this situation, but I didn’t hear them. And now, I get it.Β *Good job!!! Do it more.Β :p

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Allah, is there still someone for me, with this stupid girl? I feel NOT. πŸ™‚ I’m hopeless for this. Yaaah, how poor me. This is my risk because I amn’t good yet.

Allah, You know what I need now, but You will grant for me if I worship to You.

I’m hopeless for this situation actually. Coz my own mistakes. Sudahlah. I’ll responsible with this.

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Berapa Apa Lagi & RockTheory

Ok, this post will tell about the giveaway and I’s the winner of that.
Hehehe. I’s the winner because only me that joined in that GA. Wonderful, because it was my first time to join in a GA and the participant is only me. No others.

A giveaway that be held by Mas Ahmad Fauzan, here. Actually, I didn’t know, but he told me that there was a GA in his blog by blogwalking on my blog. So, I visited there and it’s right. By the accident, it’s about reading a poetry and I was very interested with that. I wanna I wanna.

For some days, I found the right time to read the poetry because I needed a quiet place and no one can hear me when I had to read the poetry.

The title of poetry is ‘Berapa Apa Lagi?’ That’s nice and sad poetry. Oke, maybe you should read the poetry.

berapa banyak yang kau ketahui tentang hari-hariku?
dimana detik sebegitu pentingnya untuk dihitung
juga mili per mili
melulu menyibukkan
Β 
dan berapa jauh kah langkahmu?
dari tempat semula kita berpisah
mungkin membelakangi – mungkin beriringan
tegak lurus atau hanya bersimpangan?
Β 
berapa jumlah – entah matahari terbit
entah bulan bulat penuh
atau kembang api besar sekedar memendar –
yang kau tunggu
hingga keputusanmu terbit;
bulat penuh;
atau hanya sekedar memendar?
Β 
juga
berapa kelopak bunga yang kau habiskan?
untuk menggugurkan β€˜tetap tinggal’ dan memilih β€˜pergi’
tanpa batas waktu
tanpa kelopak tambahan tentu
Β 
berapa banyak lagi?
airmata yang harus tumpah
dari sumber yang belum pernah kering
untuk berapapun jauhnya langkah
berapapun banyaknya β€˜entah’
dan berapapun kelopak bunga yang harus patah
Β 
Β 
berapa apa lagi?
Β 
Β 
Timika, 8 Oktober 2012

 

When I read this poetry, I feel ‘WOW’. Sad and touching. I can feel that how pain when someone must make decision to choose LEAVE from us. πŸ˜€ And I can’t think that this poetry will be a reality in my condition right now. Great!!! This poetry is in me. But, I mustn’t be down. Proposal and thesis are in front of you, Ning!!! *Hmmm. Curcol lageee… Sorry, reader… Hehehe… πŸ™‚

 

On February 1st, 2013, A. Fauzan posted about the list of participant the GA. I read, I was still the first participant. And you can hear my voice here. Hehehe. But, the voice of the owner is better, I think. Check this out here.

 

And on February 13th, 2013. He told me that I was a winner. Hahaha… It happened because of the participant, I was the only one. πŸ˜€

For the gift, it was a T-Shirt from RockTheory. I was given a chance to choose a T-Shirt that I want. Awesome!!! πŸ™‚ It meant that I would get the free T-Shirt. Hehehe… Thanks, brother. πŸ™‚

 

Finally, the gift came. On March 4th, 2013. Ye ye ye ye… RockTheory from Kk Ahmad Fauzan.

 

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Taraaaa…

 

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Actually, this RockTheory, I will give it for someone. I have promised to him. But, because of a reason, I won’t and I can’t. Hehehe. πŸ˜€ I broke the promise. No problem. It is not important also for him. He can forget it easily. Sorry, bro. I have a prerogative for this. πŸ˜€

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Narsis sedikit, gpp toh? :D
Narsis sedikit, gpp toh? πŸ˜€

Once more again, thanks Kk Ahmad Fauzan for RockTheory-nya and the nice poetry. πŸ™‚

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At This Lane

A Fiction Story.

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At this lane at the nice afternoon. From your lecturer’s house.

We walk together. You and I walk to the end of lane for waiting my friend to pick me up. We walk simultaneously. Before it, you ask me to let you bring my heavy bag.

You say, “You may not have a heavy bag like this. It is not good for you.” And I just nod. I’m speechless.

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Suddenly, you hold my hand. I feel there is something fun that make me happy with you. Is it sincere from you to do it to me? I nearly shed the tear because of you. I feel it is true. :’)

A love is a story. I think.

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And we walk together, our feet step simultaneously and you and I laugh and smile when looking each other.

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This is nice, darl. πŸ™‚ Do you know? This is my first time to be like this. With you.

Thank you for being my prince.

You bring me to a wonderful place that never I get before.

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While I wait my friend at the end of lane, we chat; tell about the vision, division of your faculty, and about my feeling to you today. “I’m happy. Thank you, darl!” I say before we keep a part. πŸ™‚

A few minutes later, my friend come.

And I must sayΒ ‘Goodbye’Β to you.

But, you just smile and walk in reverse direction, not to look at me when I want to go.

You just leave.

After holding my hand. After accompanying me. After walking together. After steping the feet simultaneously. After you make me smile. After you make me laugh. After you make me happy.

And now, you prefer to choose leaving me.

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I think, this is the end of our love. Just only at this lane. Not in other lanes anymore.

Sometimes, we have to fly, feeling freedom, love, and happiness. But, we don’t forget that we are able to fall in misery. Pain. And we have to rebuild the lost spirit. Alone. With the passage of time.

And this pain tear sheds. We are separated finally.

::The End::

Posted in English, Life, Love

At This Lane

A Fiction Story.

google.com

At this lane at the nice afternoon. From your lecturer’s house.

We walk together. You and I walk to the end of lane for waiting my friend to pick me up. We walk simultaneously. Before it, you ask me to let you bring my heavy bag.

You say, “You may not have a heavy bag like this. It is not good for you.” And I just nod. I’m speechless.

google.com

Suddenly, you hold my hand. I feel there is something fun that make me happy with you. Is it sincere from you to do it to me? I nearly shed the tear because of you. I feel it is true. :’)

A love is a story. I think.

google.com

And we walk together, our feet step simultaneously and you and I laugh and smile when looking each other.

google.com

This is nice, darl. πŸ™‚ Do you know? This is my first time to be like this. With you.

Thank you for being my prince.

You bring me to a wonderful place that never I get before.

google.com

While I wait my friend at the end of lane, we chat; tell about the vision, division of your faculty, and about my feeling to you today. “I’m happy. Thank you, darl!” I say before we keep a part. πŸ™‚

A few minutes later, my friend come.

And I must sayΒ ‘Goodbye’Β to you.

But, you just smile and walk in reverse direction, not to look at me when I want to go.

You just leave.

After holding my hand. After accompanying me. After walking together. After steping the feet simultaneously. After you make me smile. After you make me laugh. After you make me happy.

And now, you prefer to choose leaving me.

google.com

I think, this is the end of our love. Just only at this lane. Not in other lanes anymore.

Sometimes, we have to fly, feeling freedom, love, and happiness. But, we don’t forget that we are able to fall in misery. Pain. And we have to rebuild the lost spirit. Alone. With the passage of time.

And this pain tear sheds. We are separated finally.

::The End::

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You and Me

Everything has been finished.
Although it is ended by misery.
That’s life.
We cannot be happy forever.
Sometimes we have to get pain.
For the sake of the precious experience.

And you always make my feeling be up and down.
Actually, I felt tired with these all.
What do you want to me?
You’ve stated that you could be the best. Hahaha. Time is still long, but you make it be short.
You finally give up with this condition.
You can defeat the obstacles, but you are not serious with what happen in front of you.

From beginning you want to come back to me, I have said I can’t expect SO MUCH from your rhetorics because I wanna a proof, not just saying.
But you can’t prove it at all to me.
I’m fine when you have to leave.
Coz I haven’t expected you so much since you made me disappointed.
You would prefer her than me.

I am not your doll, Barbie, or anything else of yours.
I still have feeling that must be kept to be happy always.
At least, not to be GALAU because unclear status of relationship.

Yup. Today, you want to leave me. Please. That’s your willing. That’s OK. I’m fine. πŸ™‚
I don’t ask you to keep standing besides me because I can be independent.
I still love my parents, families, my great teachers, and my best friends.
You are not fully wrong, and I am not fully right.
Maybe, it is the way for each other to learn. Be better.
I can still survive. Without you.
Many others outside.

Thanks. πŸ™‚

Posted in Life, Love

You and Me

Everything has been finished.
Although it is ended by misery.
That’s life.
We cannot be happy forever.
Sometimes we have to get pain.
For the sake of the precious experience.

And you always make my feeling be up and down.
Actually, I felt tired with these all.
What do you want to me?
You’ve stated that you could be the best. Hahaha. Time is still long, but you make it be short.
You finally give up with this condition.
You can defeat the obstacles, but you are not serious with what happen in front of you.

From beginning you want to come back to me, I have said I can’t expect SO MUCH from your rhetorics because I wanna a proof, not just saying.
But you can’t prove it at all to me.
I’m fine when you have to leave.
Coz I haven’t expected you so much since you made me disappointed.
You would prefer her than me.

I am not your doll, Barbie, or anything else of yours.
I still have feeling that must be kept to be happy always.
At least, not to be GALAU because unclear status of relationship.

Yup. Today, you want to leave me. Please. That’s your willing. That’s OK. I’m fine. πŸ™‚
I don’t ask you to keep standing besides me because I can be independent.
I still love my parents, families, my great teachers, and my best friends.
You are not fully wrong, and I am not fully right.
Maybe, it is the way for each other to learn. Be better.
I can still survive. Without you.
Many others outside.

Thanks. πŸ™‚